All the Worry of your Worthiness

This is fucking scary, this is when the loud screaming creeps back in and insecurities pop up. Where once you thought you had worked through these, released them, pivoted and opened a new layer. Your worthiness that you feel within yourself slaps you sideways with a big dirty old wet fish. BOOM!

 The worthiness that we feel within ourselves is what speaks to our very soul- its how we speak to ourselves on a daily basis, how we show up for ourselves, how we act or pretend but most of all its how we see ourselves in this lifetime and maybe many before.

I have sat with this page for awhile now, I started off with a hiss and roar and was just about to push publish, but my ego and that little ole am I worthy enough reared its ugly head and I just held on. I held on for dear life, with a steel like grip , waiting for something or someone. I think I was just waiting for my ego or my own self to get out of my own friggin way.

I also think it was out of pure fear, fear of judgement of being worthy enough to put myself like this out to the ether. The utter bullshit of “who’s going to read this”

The fear of what others might think can really fuck with your mind if you let it, but you know what. Fuck that! And to tell you the truth that is not my bloody worry.

I had a download this arvo in my meditation to just push the publish button Lissa, get on with it, become what you have set out to do. One step at a time.

So here I am.

I am a mother fucking worthy badass tribal goddess, that chose this body at this time right now to create, to fucking experience, to not actually have my shit

together and know what I am here to do or be, to bring joy and to have a friggin epic human experience.

I am a powerful woman, I have a generous heart, I am beautiful, I can be charming when I feel it, I bring laughter and spunk to all those that I hold dear.

I’m strong, I’m respected, I love deeply and passionately and forever ferociously loyal. I am empowered and choose to empower others from a place of love!

And by golly I am a worthy wild woman and honor myself, my divinity and also yours.

Join me on this creation and journey.

Much much Aroha

Lis

May 27 2020